Today is not that day

Prologue

I truly wanted to be at peace.

I shouldn’t care but for some reason I cannot seem to let it go.

I burden myself with troubles not of my own account and hold on to emotions unwelcome.

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Your face reminds me of times we laughed

Your movement sings with the song in dance

Your words speak as if nothing was ever wrong

And that, of all, hurts most in every glance.

Advice is welcome here today

I lost my trust in my truth

Actions scratch away at my heart

All I need is words of sooth.

Accused of feelings never existed

Drowns the want of hope

That people are all good at their core

And a noose created with all that rope.

These days make us see darkness

Others deal out pain with no regret

And blinded by their own fake light

I am bitter today with certain sunset.

Eventually it will be fine

But today is not that day

I will be stronger because of it

Eventually it will be OK.